Depression walks upon me everywhere here and there,
Depression walks upon me and this pain I can not bare.
I have not been good to anyone passing my path,
When pain is how I feel inside come on now do the math.
People don't like me because of the way I look,
People stare at me so deadly like i am some sort of crook.
Depression walks upon me and soon ill go insane,
I cant take this anymore no-one can cure this pain.
It hurts me terribly how people treat me in school,
When my friends talk behind my back I feel upset and like a fool.
Sorry dad I can't be the daughter that I know you want inside,
So tell me dad do you care? So hurry up and decide,
Because really I have had my heart stepped on and broken one too many times.
When finally you think about it my love don't cost a dime.
I'm sorry I'm not Ashlyn or as perfect as her,
When all this brings fighting between us a commotion I always stir.
I know you think I feel sorry for myself and say I'm being dumb,
But she is not your daughter dad, and I am for one.
And two I should not have to impress you by getting really good grades,
I shouldn't have to compete against her dad no more charades.
Dad you've caused me so emotional pain and don't even notice.
I know your going threw a hard time right now but I cannot forget this.
No one at school likes me for stupid and pathetic reasons,
To make fun of people like they do to me makes me feel deceived in.
I cant stand showing off and trying to be something that I am not,
Sometimes it hurts so bad that I wish the world would stop.
An argument to some people can mean your friendship and its over faster than you think,
When the friends you trust give up so quick from one little fight it feels like it happened within a blink.
I act like everything is fine and act like its OK,
But everyone knows is pain is how I pay.
I close my eyes and wish I am out of these years that are hell.
But reality comes rushing back like an invisible spell.
I am always depressed and start to become crabby.
It seems like every sound that someone makes turns me into someone snappy.
It seems like nothing else matters not friends, grades or school
All I did was try to fit in but I guess was a fool.
Depression walks upon as if it is a command.
But depression sucks especially when it seems like a demand.
Its saying don't be happy.
I want your life to be crabby.
No one listens to anything I have to say.
To my friends I am invisible brick hard and sturdy and in the way.
I'm always there for them and listen to them too,
But they never listen back even when I'm in the blue.
Depression walks upon me and I'm causing my mom stress,
And every-time I meet someone its like another person to impress.
Depression walks upon me everywhere here and there,
I'm sorry mom and everyone else my pain you should not bare.
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