Letting Go...

When I look at you now,
It's hard because all over again my heart starts to race,
And I look into your eyes and all I can see is my face.
You do something to me that I can't explain,
But you left me with so much pain.
With you I took a chance
And now I'm left with memories that I want to remake.
I know I am strong and can pull through
But sometimes it's hard with all that you do.
You still to this day make my cry; when you still continue to lie.
I thought that you actually cared, but I guess I was wrong,
And sometimes I find myself barely dragging along.
No matter what I'll keep you in my heart,
Which is exactly where I wanted you from the start.
You were everything to me and so much more,
And now I am opening the door.
I'm letting you out; I'm letting you go,
Because with you I sunk to a whole new low.
A low that was so low I never want to fell that way again
And now I am finally learning how to defend.
So I guess after all this I'm saying thanks.
Thanks for teaching how being in love really feels.
You were my first love which is something no one can ever steal.
In a very long road ahead you made me so much stronger,
I just wish this all could have lasted a little longer.
You told me one day that you couldn't live without me and you loved me.
Seven months later and I finally see.
I see what you're all about.
I also see that I can do better and that's without a doubt.
You taught me what I don't want in a relationship with a boy,
Because you took my heart and played with it like it was a chew toy.
This chew toy was bitten into over and over again.
And to this day the scars and bite marks still remain.