What if?

Have you ever noticed that when you think of something the first thing that pops in your mind is what if?like what if we run away and never come home will there be consequences?what if we cut our selves and make ourselves bleed and we do it so deep that we finally kill ourselves and get what we want but what if there is heaven and hell?since we killed ourselves does that mean it wasn't our time so we face the horrible dangers in hell?or is it just a test too see if we really believe in those type of things?so what if something were to happen like that?or worse ?so what if it does?