Perhaps

We've said that we loved each other
Way more times
Than I could ever count
But in the sun I felt uneasy

You gave me a reason to love
The pain wouldn't stop
It's still here
Still with me

Even if I turned back
The sturdy hands of time
You wouldn't be there
And it's what I don't understand

Perhaps if I smiled
I could have found happiness
Perhaps if I laughed
You would still be here

In a place where we promised
All the promises
That we could think of
I came back to find what was lost

The stars that shine
over and over in the sky
As many as there are
Is the same amount of pain I feel

Perhaps if I had cried
Would you have embraced me?
Or would you have scolded me?
We'd surely still be together

A beginning was a horrible thing
Little drops of rain
Falling, falling, falling
Before we noticed we had no umbrella
We were too far apart.

Perhaps if I smiled
I could have found happiness
Perhaps if I laughed
You would still be here