Your all gone

I read every letter befrore i
put it through the shedder
i llok at every picture
before i rip it up
i still keep crying
harder and harder each time
i get rid of all of the gifts
from you guys
all of the clothes
we bought together
the posters the cds
everything that will remind me
of my past and keep me hanging in
i cant do this
why do they want you all to be gone
you lifted me up when i was down
helped me heal when i was hurt
you guys were always there for me
yet they all say it was your fault i am here its not
i begin to erase all the emails
and cry when i push empty on the
trash box and no that
they are really gone
i have to delete all of the phone
numbers and email addresses from my computer
what makes them think i will live through this i dont f-ing no

*for all the people that dont know at the end of njovember i was taken out of my moms custody.i was then put in to foster care and i wont get out till the end of the skool year and a month ago they took my freinds away and got restraining orders against them and they are just gone and i have been cutting really bad and they keep sending me away. yeah thats my life