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A lot of secrets are to me unknown
But there's only one i wish that could be shown:
I want to look inside their heart
Before mine is torn apart.
I want to see who does care,
Who really wants me there
To join them by their side,
Who thinks my heart is a place
Where all their thoughts can hide.
That's something i will never face.
What's inside them, love or hate?
To know this is not my fate.
My destiny is to look for some light
Crawling in the darkness of the night.
You're probably asking what's wrong with me,
It's just that in their hearts i want to be.
And who am i talking about here?
My friends, whose feelings i ignore and fear...

(PS: i couldn't find any title cause 64 characters aren't enough to resume the poem, my feelings...)