Days I Enjoy

I enjoy the silent nights away from gossips and fears
I enjoy thinking of you even though my eyes flow with tears

I enjoy suffering in these dark nights
I enjoy writing something no one will ever write

I enjoy depressing myself and get into a miserable state
I enjoy falling down broken and don't tolerate

You might think I'm crazy for doing these kind of things
But you will do worse when you see the whole world full of grins and blinks

Close your eyes and try to widen your imaginary and imagine
Imagine a rose with dead stem and dry petals living in heaven

I know how mystifying it feels to think of how heaven looks like
And how mystifying it sounds of a semi dead rose which seems tyke

But this is life from the outside where we can't even imagine what we want
You know it is life when you feel depressed,broken and gaunt

This is all i wanted to say to make you look around you
And whatever you discover make sure that it's not something new

And now I shall go to sleep and see what my nightmare will be about this time
I hope its about me being cooked for a small beast waiting to dine