Do I Want It?

"I love you"
she said softly
over the telephone line,
and on the inside,
my every wish
has been fulfilled.

"You are all that matters to me"
she said after,
and I am filled with terror.
If I matter so much to her,
what will happen
if something happens to me?

What if I die?
Will it ruin her life?
I don't want to ruin her life
no matter what happens between us.
I don't want to matter that much,
not to anyone, no matter what.

I don't want that much responsibility
placed on my life.
I don't want to ruin her life
with the ending of mine.

I love her too much
to want to change
her life so drastically.
I want to be with her
but I don't want to matter.
Ever.

But maybe I do
I lover her, why not?
She means the same to me
I couldn't live without her.

I have made my decision,
I have made up my mind.
She says she loves me
with all of her heart,
And I love her,
with all of mine.

She means the world to me
so i guess I'll be fine,
if I mean that much to her
The I want her to be mine.