Is it I?

I watchyou from afar,
Wondering what you are laughing at,
IS IT I?
Is it me your laughing at?
I trusted you,
But now I'm not so sure,
The feeling of being insecure has become so overwhelming I cannot take it,
The trust is no longer there,
That feeling I felt,
That I could tell and say anything to you is gone,
IS IT I?
Why?
Why me?
You knew that I trusted you,
I pray to go that somehow it isn't me,
I don't want it to be me,
Do you?