Pull the trigger

Give me a second
to think about the things
that have ever been done
to make me feel this way

give me a second
before i pull the trigger
before i end my life
before i end the pain
Before i stop doing anything ever again

"your a failure"
"you'll never succeed"
"you'll never be anything....
but a plain o'l being...........
of satin"

your a dork
you a looser
your a nerd
THATS why beggars aren't choosers

your not her type
shes out of your league
give it up boy
its obvious to see
You just another toy

"will you be mine"
"not in a thousand life times"
"just give me a chance"
"not even for a payed romance"

and now I'm standing
on the roof top
will you catch me if i fall

now i have the gun to my head
readying the trigger
will you come to my rescue
and save the day

anyone I've ever loved
Has never loved
or just decided
to never ever love
or cant ever love....
again!!!!!

and now I'm gonna be with them
who can never ever love again
who can never feel the pain of heart ache
who can never feel the pain of love sacrifice

LOVE IS SACRILEGE
LOVE IS....IS.....
LOVE IS SATIN
IN HIS TRUEST FORM
LOVE HAS NEVER SEEN MY FACE
DECREPIT, FEEBLE, OLD, AND INFIRM
INCAPACITATED
CRIPPLED, DODDERING TOTTERING, ELDERLY AGED, DILAPIDATED, RICETY, DERELICT, RAMSHACKLE, RUINED, DECAYED....WITH THE THOUGHT OF LOVE!!!!!!!!

and now I'm down
into my room
where no one can hear
the sound or gunshots
but then again maybey not

what would mother say
when she found out
what would my father do?
would he break down?
What would my brother do?
would he scream in pain?
what would my sister do?
would she cry again?

so I'll put my gun away
until another day
when i reminisce
on all my pains
that scar my face
until that day
I'll put my depression at bay
and just sleep
my tears away