I still Care

You screamed and shouted,
As you promised I would never forget.
I know I hurt you,
But what about all the times you hurt me,
Maybe thats different.
How could I be so stupid and believe you cared?
You never really cared,
Best friends was only our cover,
So we could claim we weren't enemies.
To many lies have been told,
And we can't go back to the beginning.
I wish you knew I still care,
I think about you every day,
As I look back at old photographs.
I remember everything ,
As if it was only yesturday.
You don't care any more,
Your life would be better off if I was dead,
No one hounding you for one last chance.
I've thought about killing myself,
To ease everyone of pain,
But if I was dead.
I couldn't care any more,
And I wouldn't be able to let you know.
I still wonder how you from day to day,
And if you were to die,
I'd be at your funeral.
To show you I never forgot all our good times.

**dedicated to cammie**