I Thought You Did See...

And I smile now at the times that I had
Cause I know I wont ever forget
I cry now, because of the hurts
And suddenly Im filled with regret

Why was I so open again?
Its not as if I like to get hurt
Its that I seem to get the guys
That just treat me like dirt

Im not setting my self up again
This time Ill swear it to the grave
And as I release all this tension
In my head, I try to stay brave

Its just a little cut upon my wrist
Nothing I havent ever done before
You hurt me deep, deep down
You hurt me to my core

And I cried as I reached for my knife
As I have done so many times
Its almost like its a punishment
Something for my unsaid crimes

And I was held my head up so strong
I would of finally made you proud
But as my head finally grew too heavy
I swore I heard you screaming out loud

I thought you were saying \\\"No baby, please dont\\\"
I need you to be here for me
I thought you said you wanted me
I thought you said you could finally see

And I used all my last bit of strength
Opened my eyes to find you werent there
I finally realised that you never were
And that you never really did care

Yes - tis a reprint cause the other one was broken and had weird squiggly lines

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crystal - say yes to james he is the love of you life, and you can have fat ugly bald children, nd live in a gutter