Am i that i am

Tough enough to say this is me
to many mistakes at hand
are my choices forced or free
will I succeed at the plan

my prayers belong to God
the answer not always heard
is our relationship a fraud
have vain prayers become absurd

should I use my wisdom
to navigate this condition
my heart and mind are in prison
not sure of my intuition

not real smart
not too pretty
have a big heart
but not a lot of pity

can't better my situation
kids have lost respect
can't ease their frustration
so what can I expect

I know i have a purpose
but feel like I'm gonna to fail
can my greatness surface
please father i need to prevail

am i your child
am i just a slave
am i on trial
am i to be saved

am i that i am
the angels stand by for your word
is faith just a scam
or a relationship with you undeserved

Bless back!