All I need to be

Everyone is expecting more of me
What I'm trying now isn't enough I could be
Just a smile and words won't do
Now I have to reach out and do things I never knew
I hope my heart is ready for these change
Because inside I feel so empty and strange
I feel like I'm walking away from God
But I keep going on though I know it's odd
I try my best and do what they told
But they don't care and turned me down cold
After that I am lost and don't know where to go
My old self is gone and no more feelings that used to glow
Tears roll down with no one by myside
Now my heart aches with feelings and thoughts that I used to hide
They have changed me and left me with nothing
I realize I was a puppet on a string
Them controlling me on what I wanted to do and be
But now I know that their pressure wrecked me
I want those nights of crying to be over
I don't want to let anything or anyone interfere
Too many mistakes and sins to remember
All I need is God's help to lead me in the future