Thoughts of suicide

The feeling of death is here again,
and i don't know why,
there is nothing any one can do or say,
i just want to cry,
and no one will ever know why,
why do i have these morbid feelings so,
the thought of my death will always be on my mind,
I'm so lost i feel blind,
the barbed wire will bind,
to my dark and empty heart,

i cant explain the emptiness inside,
the pain tears at my heart till nothing is left,
i wish i was never born and that day i died,
i would rather be dead then feel useless,
if i said i wanted to live i would have lied,

when my heart is full of nothingness,
and my life is nothing but a mess,
i take the rusted blade of the knife,
to try to end my useless god forseken life life.