Letting Go

I lost my dream come true last night,
I thought what I was doing was alright.

I pushed him away from me,
I guess I just couldn't see.

He was willing to stay here,
All because I was selfish and I wanted him near.

I care about him so I pushed him away,
I told him to just leave as I thought "please stay".

I don't want him to stay because of how I feel,
This is his life and future this is all real.

He needs to do whats best,
My feelings shouldn't matter to the rest.

He needs to be happy no matter where he may go,
Maybe how I feel is what he shouldn't know.

Should I lie to him about this,
Should I just say goodbye with a kiss?

I've cried all these tears,
Everything has come true including my fears.

I am telling him to go now,
I will cope someday... somehow.