On the count of three

If you look into my eyes
You will see my soul
Its something that I cannot disguise
Inside I'm black as coal

Most people wonder what happened
To the bright person I used to be
The person that I am now
Was the one trapped inside of me

Maybe if they knew me
If they actually cared
They would know what I was feeling
They would know that I was scared

They don't know what I'm doing
The ways I deal with my pain
I drown all my sorrows
With a thin sharp blade

I want out so bad
But they keep me trapped
All the voices in my head
I think I finally snapped

I am standing on the edge
In my throat I feel a lump
I look down one last time
And on the count of three I jumped