She is me

She was once a happy girl
She had a life of fun
Deep deep down its still there
But now she feels she has to run

All of a sudden it all went wrong
Things just got too bad
She was unhappy
Almost to the point of mad

A lot of things had happened
At the time she didnâ??t know why
She was scared to tell her friends
She felt she had to lie

It nearly got too much to handle
She couldnâ??t stand her life no more
She saw the hell, she saw the devil
How close was she to closing the door

There she now lay
Shed taken sixteen
Paralysed to the stairs
Not even able to scream

She lay there unconscious
With no memory of what she did
such a small girl she was
But still no longer a kid

no-one knew why she did it
she had a heart that was free
but really her heart was full of pain
No one was able to see

They thought her life was perfect
but really she felt so alone
Her heart had ran away
So she just wanted to be gone

Her friends were always asking why
Coz she always had a friend there
But her mind was able to persuade her
Those people donâ??t really care

She told them what she thought:
â??You say you hate me being fake
But when I need a quiet talk
I have no friendly hand to takeâ??

â??what you say is all a lie
you can always take my hand
you must learn that you are able to trust
im a true friend, please understandâ??

although it took time for her to believe
she could now mean her smile
it took time but now she feels
she is able to live a while

now her life is better
though she still has those moments
but they donâ??t last long
she can defeat her devil opponents

she watches everyone worry
Not knowing what could be
wondering if shes truly ok
she still secretly has that fake smile you see

she cries herself to sleep
or lies awake every night
dwelling on the problems
its not always alright

but shes scared of telling her thoughts
incase they all decide to leave
thatâ??s her one phobia in life
being alone, not able to breathe

I wonder what all of her friends wouldâ??ve done
if this scared girl was no longer to be
I wonder how they wouldâ??ve reacted to the letter
If it said goodbye, im now free

but nothing bad had happened
And this girl, shes alive today
shell always have those ups and downs
but thatâ??s life, what can I say

her friends told her this:
Please do not ever scare me again
Please do not try and leave
youâ??re amazing, please see that, my friend

You do not know much you scared me
You do not know how much I cried
Just at the thought of losing you
At the thought you could of died

the girl looked into their eyes and smiled
She finally knew they were true
No longer will she be afraid of life
And you know what, its all thanks to you