Seperate thoughts

I miss him so much
i wish i could feel his touch
but now hes gone
and our relationship is done

i feel so bad for leaving her
but everything just came as a blurr
why me?why?
now all i do is cry

he doesn't love me anymore
was i nothing but a bore?
i thought he was the one
i thought we were meant to bond

i love her so much
every time i see her i blush
but now every thing's changed
nothing will ever be the same

doesn't he know how much he means to me?
why doesn't he see that were meant to be?
i cry every night holding a knife in my hand
this life i can no longer stand

i hope she doesn't do anything stupid cause ill die
i wish she knew how much i think of her each and every night
i wanna tell her my problem
i wish she could help me solve them

oh my god it hurts so much why did he leave
why do i feel used? why do i feel cheap?
doesn't he know I'd do anything for him
if i had to id fill a glass of my blood to the brim

if she only knew how i felt
no more pain would be dealt
i know it hurts but its what i have to do
i wish we didn't have to say goodbye but I'm sorry i love you

*i dont think it's finished yet