Am I Worth Anyones Time

I want the one thing that I know I can't have

I just want to be normal with out any problems

I think time and time again about the death of mine and how I can do it

I just wish you cared or in fact if any one cares

I can't help but think of it so much when I'm alone

I just want all the problems to be gone so I can fit in with every one else

I question my faith some times I don't think theres any one up there

I can't bare to handle this pain any more than I have

When I come around you don't seem to notice me

I just wonder if I'm worth your time at all or if I ever was

I question the heavens above me and think I'm not good enough to make it to there

To be this lonely is hurting me so bad on the inside

My thoughts confuse me so much that I don't remember what I think about stuff around me

I scream and cry myself to sleep night after night wonder who am I useful to

To know that your not made for any one hurts more than anything else in the world

To feel rejected everyday for the rest of your life is the hardest to deal with

I just want to end this pain and get it over with

I let the blood run down my arm and lay there as I bleed

Now everything doesn't feel so bad when I'm like this

I still question am I worth any ones time