Only unitil recent times

Only until recent times,
did I discover a desire for her,
the feeling was always there,
but waited to reveal itself,
simply due to my lack of
expecting gentleness from the world.
But she too battles demons,
a drift in her own personal hell.
A problem she needs to overcome,
if she'll just open her eyes
to what's I front of her.
A way to end her pain,
put her mind at ease.
I know I'm capable of loving her,
and my willingness to surrender,
to her every want and need,
is stronger than that of thirty men.
When she speaks of her pain,
I want helplessly to hold her,
soothe her, calm her, make it right.
A love to be kept in secret,
if found a wait in exile.
Finally a tangible love,
so close but yet so far.
I promise to never hurt her.
I will never make her cry,
not the way the others did.
Her heart is delicate,
I keep vigil of her every move,
a hypnotic rush,
pushing me over the edge of
desire and lust.
Will she let me love her?
Touch her? Hold her? Whisper
softly into her ear,
the sweet word of love,
I've so longed to say?
Allowed into her world?