The power to stay alive or to finally die are in constant conflict with each other
My friends all say \"you gotta live,stay here and help us live threw our anguish, you\'ve survived so far, stay and help us do the same\"
But my mind and body scream out \"NOOOOOOOO! just die , kill yourself , dying may hurt but not nearly as much as staying alive!\"
Can My Friends Not See my blood soaked clothes, my bleeding cuts and slits, my pulsing scars?!?
Can they not see right threw me, past the fake smile and laugh, and see that me, \"the strong one\" is dying?
Can they not see my soul, so ready to give up and finally let go, bleeding and crying there alone in that corner?
How Can They Not See?!?
how can they not know that the me they see isn\'t really me at all?
it makes no sense whatsoever to me. what is the point in stayiong alive only to wither and fall somewhere else? rather tahn die now,end it all,get the pain over with?
yes, people may be shocked and even hurt by our death, thinking it their fault when all along it was yours and yours only, they will feel it is endless pain
but give it time and they will forget your name
whereas if you stay alive your body and soul will go threw never ending pain
