My mind spins through bits and pieces of the past that seem to make my heart cry yet hold on longer......
yet somehow it still seems to hold on to nothing.....and at the same time the memories mean so much, yet there worth nothing more then just parts of the past that are now only real in my mind!!
what good is that if it cant rewind me back to the time when i could feel you.....taste you......smell you.....and most of all to the time when you were mine and i was yours!!??
what use is it to have something so fresh in your mind,yet not be able to have what your mind and heart so badly yearns for!!??
this day forward i ask myself what exactly is the purpose of memories?? when all it does is make you hurt.....and want something even more then you already did!!
memories are just something that makes us hold on to an empty space......a vision....a dream that will never come true!!
But then again i tell myself without any memories ill be letting go of whats most important to me..... and that is what it feels like to really love someone with all of your heart and although those memories remind me that your no longer with me...it also reminds me what we once had was special and to experience that powerful feeling...even if it was just in a short period of time.....its enough to leave a lasting impact on my life then......but mostly now!! and that alone isn't worth giving up!!!!
