My Suicide

As I watch you go and I knowing that I'll never get to say goodbye

I watch every dieing person poison them selves in that cavern

Tell me why this life has to hurt so much

Every one deceiving me from since the day I was born

In all my dreams I see myself being asphyxiated by the rope

As I waken I feel so numb and cold

I've isolated myself so much that I can't feel anything that I haven't already felt before

As I dream I walk across malignant land and watch as the stars burn out and die

I watch as the stars die and I don't see one for me up there

I ask myself is there any room up there for me any way

I plan that night to hang from the tree limb in the cold and feel myself being asphyxiated by the rope

As I wait for me breath to be cut off fully I think of how it will help everyone in the long run

All my melancholy leave me hanging there and go away

I reached the apex of my hurting, numbness, and pain