Help me please

Please don't skip over this scene
I'm wanting and needing help,
this is more then just a dream
i cant go on like this,
keep these thoughts in
constantly wanting to scream,
it hurts not talking about it
i don't feel i can talk to any one,
is my scream loud enough for you to hear
are my tears big enough for you to see,
i cant go on with this pain,
it hurts so much it causes so much strain,
i tried to restrain i really did,
please hear what I'm saying
i smile around every one,
but when I'm to myself i just break down,
I'm in a dark corner and i cant find the light ,
there is only a mirror
to reflect every thing i hate to be,
to reflect th person i hate to see,
i cant shatter it, t wont break,
so it stays,
and traps in,
with myself and my tears,
i really want to get out,but nothing works.