It Really Hurts

Crying alone in the dark
Hiding away from your laugh
In the closet is where I sit
Trying to find something so that I can slit
Punching myself if I make a sound
My head is spinning round and round
Scratching my arms until they bleed
It is too dark for me too see
Wanting something that isn't there
Trying to stop being so horribly scared
Remembering the things that you said tonight
And knowing that you were right
Remembering all the pain from the past
Making my body shatter like glass
Sobbing and shaking all night long
In the dark, on my own
Blood from my arms running constantly
Tears gushing down my cheeks
Adrenaline pumping through my veins
My body jerking, twitching and going insane
Gasping for breath making chest heave
Feeling pain like you wouldn't believe
I can't let you hear so I must be quiet
So all my pain is suffered in silence
I’m six feet under and choking on dirt
And the truth is....is that it really hurts