Loving you brings so much pain,
Not having you drives me insane.
I wish I had the courage to express
All my feelings of tenderness,
All the love I keep locked inside
And all the feelings I try to hide.
When I think of you my mussels get weak.
I start to wonder about the answers I seek.
Why did you walk away?
I convinced myself that youd be back one day.
I waited up for you every night
Constantly looking but you were never anywhere in sight.
Please just gently hold my hand
And tell me, make me understand
Why you turned your back on me
And why you closed your eyes so you couldnt see?
I wanted you to look in my eyes,
I wanted you to see my cries, I wanted you to see the love
I wanted you to take me higher, above.
Please stop being so god dammed blind
Open your eyes and look at what there is to find!
I loved you I still do!
In another way I hate you.
What we had was special, it was real.
Open your eyes! Open your mind and at least understand what I feel.
