Dissappointment

Disappointment

That feeling that occurs when you feel as if you're not good enough.

As if you let yourself down.

You want to be average, normal, anything.

But you know you just won't ever be.

So you sit and think about it.

It clings to your mind as if there's nothing better to think about.

Your life is nothing but unwanted actions.

You don't want to go on.

It stings you like the sharp edge of a knife.

But you get through it.

You think of them less fortunate than you.

How selfish you are.

To think of what you don't have when they have much less.

It's running through your mind.

It just won't stop.

You need something, anything, someone, ANYONE!

But you feel as if there is no one there.

No one cares.

Your life at school is nothing but a lie.

But you're life at home isn't much better.

You think of the only person who makes you happy.

That boy, and how you wouldn't survive without him.

You cry, knowing he'll be gone soon enough.

What a waste of your time.

But you hold on to him anyway.

Then you think of your father.

And how he was never there.

How he etched you out of his life so fast.

You wonder what you did wrong.

But others in your life know you did nothing.

You keep thinking.

More disappointments running through your mind.

You name a few more.

You're hoping that maybe that's all, but yet again you know it's not.

Then comes another.

You have that feeling of accomplishment knowing there'd be more.

But yet that feeling of uncertainty of whether you'll ever be done.

Will your disappointments ever stop coming.

You're sitting and hoping.

That something will go right, just one thing.

Then you think of your friends.

The one's who have been there and the ones who haven't.

You think, how could you have been that bad of a chooser.

To choose those friends that wouldn't be there.

Then you're finally done.

You're sitting, waiting wishing.

For another one to come.

But maybe that's the end.

Then end of you're unhappiness.

Then end of you're sorrow.

The end of you're

Dissapointment