One hop forward, Two hops back

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one hop forward two hops back
lost track
can i start over please?
cats have nine lives why not me?
Its all a dream
I'll wake up soon
in my own room
stop it stop it nurse!
your needles hurt!
make it all go away!
make me OK
this isn't me
i see
mommy is that you?
mommy??
don't go away
stay!
i want to play
I'll be good
i won't be bad
please mommy
please dad
cry cry cry
sleep sleep sleep
i don't want to eat!
nurse i hate the food!
down my nose with a tube
am i still little?
am i the same?
is Mary Ann
still my name!
the other me is gone
i don't belong
who do i blame
will i ever be the same?
why why why
cry cry cry
lies lies lies
I'll be alright
the doctor said so
OK then let me go
no more pain
no more cry
no more mommy
i want to die
two hops forward one hop back
lost track
can i start over again please?
cats have nine lives why not me?
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when i read this now, i still feel the pain of that little girl as if it were yesterday. I remember how her whole world changed over night and how her childhood was torn away from her...never to be the same again.
Writing poetry comes naturally to me...it's been my release, my serenity, helped to keep my sanity when no one cared.
An unheard child's cry has lasting affects for life.
This might help you understand where my life began and ended.