I promised myself not to do this. I promised not to let you in. So why? Why did I let my guard down? I'm afraid of so many things. I'm afraid that you will use this newfound trust and use it to your advantage. I'm afraid that after you achieve your ultimate goal you will leave me, cold and alone. I'm afraid that soon you will be the reason for my new fears. Fear to love; fear to be loved. I promised not to let you in. So why? Why did I allow myself to care?
