Losing Myself

Losing myself that at one time i thought i did find,
at one time i had loved and wanted you so much that it had hurt me so deep inside,
seems as though time isn't doing its job,
it is suppose to reduce the pain and its not so my feelings i decided to hide,

When i look into your eyes,
i try to remember what i used to see before your eyes became the door to all your lies,
I want the the feeling of needing you back,
because now i am so afraid that i might do something i will regret,
just to get rid of the pain,

if i ended us i would be throwing away all that i have come to know and love,
that is the pain i am afraid of most of all,
i miss my love for you So much,
after you finally told me the truth i cant get the feelings back,
our love is sitting on a great big lie,
without you my soul could die,

every time i think of leaving you,
i think of how i first saw you cry for me,
you were afraid of losing me,
and i could see it in your eyes and i know without me,
your fear cries,

i know that people make mistakes,
i would be the first to know,
but all this time that you are making it up to me,
i just cant tell you that i have secrets of my own.