I was actually having fun today
hanging with my friend acting gay
i was happy all smiling down the hall
my moods were high did not even fall
I was acting like a retard but i did not care
I was acting all high and flipping my hair
I was having fun for the first time in my life
I was not even thinking about using a knife
I was hanging out with one of my friends
until the time past and the fun ends
Megan gave my a ride home with her dad
in the jeep my moods faded from happy to sad
all because i was coming home to hell
I went to my room since my mom would yell
like she did on the phone to me
it was not my fault just let it be
what have i done to make you mad
because i came to my room this made me sad
I went to my computer and found my cord
it was not in one pieces like it's been cut by a sword
I was so freak en pissed of what i have found
because this was my lap tap now there is no sound
i can't charge it, it's like my life it's limited
I only have Little bit of time before I'm wasted
I feel like cutting so bad because I'm so mad
why would someone do this I'm so sad
i can't handle any of this crap anymore
I was strong I could hold on before
but now I'm falling deeper into this pit
nothing can be healed everything is shit
there is no more coming back this time
I'm committing suicide thats my crime
