I cant feel for what is real. It is too hard just trying everyday to deal. I cant heal because of what you have done Mom. All I want is just to be left alone. You just cant give me that can you?
You have to keep pushing and pushing till one cant take anymore. Just leave me here lying on the floor, and just please walk out the door and never come back! Love for you is what I lack. The pain you cause the crying everyday. I dont care what you have to say
Why, why cant you understand you are tearing me apart? Smashing of whats left a thing called my heart. Asking my self how did this ever start? The drugs, the never being there for me, not to mention the lies you have told. Do you even care, that this is what goes on inside me?
Probably not, I forgot you dont care, so you dont pay attention. You make me regret my life. And sometimes I feel like cutting my heart out with a knife. So there is nothing, nothing left to feel. Nothing you say will help me heal.
So this is good bye, good bye for good. No more dwelling on the past. The past I had a hard time letting go of, but now I know its its going to be okay, no matter what you have to say. I am happy now and nothing you can do can take that away. Each day goes by so fast only because I am no longer stuck in the past.
