Dark Abyss

These thoughts racing through my head
Most of them about being dead
I do not know why they are here to stay
Following me by night and day

Darkness is consuming my soul yet again
Taking me to new places I have never been
Lonliness is so close it has become my best friend
There with me until the absolute end

I can not seem to crawl my way out of the dark
On the ship to the underworld I am about to embark
Why does this hurt me in so many ways?
Confusing me so badly I am in a daze.

I feel so left out in the bitter cold
My rage getting out of hand, or so Iâ??m told
I get deeply depressed and sad
But at the same time, I'm so f.u.c.k.i.n.g. mad

Those horrible urges are coming back stronger than ever
Here to stay with me with what seems like forever
I thought I got past the bad time, yet I was so very wrong
I am so weak inside, how did I ever think I could be strong?

Crying so many tears throughout the night
Fighting the urge to hurt myself with all my might
My will to live is so dim
My future is bleak and grim

I do not ask for a helping hand
All I want to to be left alone until I can not stand
I can not answer your questions as to why I am feeling this
Just leave me be in my own dark abyss.