The Unspoken (Which Haunt My Mind)

I'm enclosed in this rubber room
Soundproof to the outside world
I can say anything, everything I want
And still I'll remain unheard
Say it all that's in my heart's desire
To reveal my innermost thoughts
Yet... the fact remains unchanged
The chances handed to me I hadn't caught
The weight I carry I can't relieve
For it chooses not to leave my mind
Clips of days encrypted forever
Her emotion clearly read through her eyes
The never ending pain is constant
The same hour of every day
I can't help but pretend to lose it
Every time she passes my way
In my mind I plan my hundredth speech
Which in the end I utter not one word
In my mind I speak to her
Understood gestures, though still unheard
If possible I'd turn back everything
When I saw her for the first time
If only then I hadn't said a word
Regrets wouldn't haunt my mind