Life isn't a big deal

My feeling are so mixed
My broken heart cannot be fixed
Thoughts of life fill my head
As I lay here in my bed
Like a sad movie that brings me to tears
A bittersweet symphony played through out the years
My vision becomes a blur thoughts all in mist
My stomach feels like a movie after a horrible plot twist
They say can heal all wounds
For me that time could not come to soon
Even in time a wound will leave a scar
Which will fade but never go away by far
I feel the pain welling inside of my chest
I try to smile, to be at my best
I feel tears stream further down my face
Like a definition without a meaning a word without a place
My thoughts flow out of my head and into this book
I feel like the person who did no wrong but got the dirty look
I will try and let my broken heart heal
But in life I question what is the big deal