Why god

As the world slowly drifts on by.
I sit in my room and wonder why?.

Why am I left with all this pain and fear.
Why cant I have my loved ones
here.

Why do I always frown and
no longer smile.
Why do I hate the phrase thing will get better after a while.

Why do I scream at god I don't want to live.
Why do I tell him I hate him then
ask him to forgive.

Why do I want to end this life as
such.
Why do I want to end it cause it pains to much.

Why did god have to take my
mum.
Why did he leave me with misery
for years to come.

Why did he then let my boyfriends life end.
Why Did he want to give me a broken
Heart that can't mend.

Why did he do it, this I want to know.
Why does this pain never ease off or ever go.