My eyes have cried
Every last trail of my
Futile tears.
My lips have whispered
Ever last syllable of my
Unanswered prayers.
My heart has bled
Every last drop of my
Worthless love.
My mind has screamed
Every last poisoned word of my
Vengeful woes.
And yet I remain.
Here I am.
All the same.
And even though my heart
Has been shattered
Into a million pieces,
And even though my mind
Has been battered
To a bloody pulp,
And even though my lips
Have frozen upon the words
Of my pointless prayers,
And even though my throat
Is hoarse and blain
From my strangled screeches of suffering,
And yet I remain.
Here I am.
All the same.
Though I'm not perfect;
Never was, never will be.
I'm still human,
And my thoughts and feelings,
Still drive me to lunacy.
Why can't you understand
This is who I am?
You can't change me.
Not with your incessant lectures,
Or your iterating phrases,
Not with your purposeful actions
Or your merciless beatings.
And yet I remain.
Here I am.
All the same.
Can't you just be
Proud of me?
Just be happy
With me?
Is that too much to
Ask of you
When for years I have
Borne your torture,
Silently?
Can't you just be proud,
Just be happy for me?
Even after all you've done,
I'm still me.
Can't you just accept,
That your attempts
Are pointless on me?
And yet I remain.
Here I am.
All the same.
And yet I remain.
Here I am.
All the same.
And yet I remain...
