Am I crazy or just clincally depressed?

I feel as if I'm going crazy,
I don't know how long I have felt this way.
Possibly forever.
I just wish,
that I knew what was wrong with me.
I mean,
Am I crazy
or just clinically depressed?
I see things all the time,
hallucinations,
as doctors would call them
but they seem so real.
things ordinary people don't see.
things that would frighten anyone.
am I crazy or
just clinically depressed?
Blood dripping from my own wrists,
people coming out of storm clouds and misty clouds.
The face of my enemy,
who stole my innocence.
it never goes away.
Am I crazy or
just clinically depressed?
is this even normal for a depressed person?
Can I change,
or will this always be me?
have I always been like this?
is this how people really see me?
Do they see me like I see myself?
Why do I ask so many Questions.
am I crazy,
or just clincally depressed?