And then I think about it. why go through all th epain. why worry about thepast. why cry over lost loves. yes i had done that before that is why alfonso broke up with me. that time i was pregnant.
I mean you are not like any of the other guys. you are what I want I found the perfect man for me. NO Lie.
I don't want you for sex, I don't want you for aid. I want you because you make me happy, you found ways to make me smile. I won't give you and excuse of why i cheated on you but I will give a reason. I loved him, and i didn't wan to let go. then he let go, andyou were there for a while, knowing how to make me smile, I bacame attached to you. you soon became my drug, my one. it hurt deeply when you said goodbye, it only made me weaker, i had lost my precious stone. I lost my world. the one I wished to keep.
I wish i could tell you that i won't do it again, but no i wont cuz now its apromise.
I hurt you so bad, please...
forgive that huge mistake. I dont want to continue slapping you in the face. I just want ot hug you. I want to heal that wound. i want to hug you goodmorning and goodbye. i want you to tellme you love me. I dont know if you still do. but if you did i would own the world once again, with you. I want to go to sleep thinking of tomorrow, new surprises, and new beginnings. I want to just be near you. you don't know how much i truly need you. i do. and i wont' just say too bad, bucause i miss you more than that. I don't know what else to say, i have spoken fromthe heart in pain. I know you are hurt more than me. but each one feels different pains, speaks of different pains, and sees different pains. please forgive me...
