Dear sister

I'm not quite sure where to begin or where to start
All I really know is that this poem's from my heart.
This may sound confusing-it is for me too
But I'm ready to begin this poem for you.

A tortuous winding path-life is a confusing place to be.
I Want to get away from this stress and find the real me.
Why can't I be happier? Today's a brand-new day...
Yet I have thoughts and memories that don't go away.

I think of my life, and my problems aren't bad
But for some unknown reason I still feel kinda sad.
It's tough being a preteen, sometimes it's just a scare
I wish I had some answers. Life isn't always fair.

Sometimes I'm just really lost and don't know what to do.
I wonder where to go who I can talk to.
No one really knows which thoughts I choose to share,
But even if I told them they probably wouldn't care.
Sometimes I want to say, "Thanks for all that you've done,"
But the words fly from my head as fast as they come.
I don't know how to talk to you, to tell you how I feel
Now and Then it's so complex. Life sometimes is surreal.

You may not always see me when I stumble, trip and fall
When tears are in my eyes and there's no one to call.
You may not hear me when I cry in bed at night
Hoping that my worries will somehow be put right.

You may not always love me when we just don't get along
I may screw up when I just don't admit that I was wrong.
I'm sharing with you because I know that you really care
The friend you are to me special, precious and rare.

Sometimes I might act joyful to camouflage my fears
But deep down inside, I want to burst right into tears.
All I need sometimes when my heart just wants to break
Is your smile and a hug. That's one thing I can't fake.

I need you, my friend, to take my hand and try
To help me mend my broken heart and be there when I
Cry.
I want you to be with me and walk with me on this road
To step along beside me and help me with the heavy load.

I want you to feel free-I hope I don't ask too much
Just be here when I need you, and offer me your touch.
Some people are ashamed to cry, but I am not afraid
For crying is the way that I let out all my pain.

A friend walks in when all others walk out.
You knocked on the door when I was full of doubt.
You are an angel. You've helped me to do what's right,
When I had no eyes, you saved me-you were my sight.

You helped me through, without you, where would I be?
A blessing and a treasure is what you are to me.
You are a great person with good advice to lend.
I want you to know that you are a wonderful friend.

Have I changed you? You have changed me a great deal
You've let me be who I am and tell you how I feel.
The best thing ever was finding a a friend just like you
Who listens and talks to me, you make each day seem
New.

I hope you liked this poem....like I said from the start this poem was written for you, from deep inside my heart.