RIP Grandpa

.Fear grips my heart. Terror claws at my stomach. I'm so petrified I'm unable to move. I stare at my reflection in the mirror.I stare back .Trembling, my hand touches my face. I wipe the tears. I have been afraid of this nightmare for so long now How could this have happened? I rub my eyes in disbelief hoping, praying that it isn't true but it is i lost you
As i lost you it was so hard to believe you were no longer there 4 me my eyes all red and face a mess as i look at your coffin to see its for real as i lay in my bed and wonder if your watching over me then as our memorize come back i was so young getting told u had a disease and u mite die it hurt me but now it happened no more pain no more fear
so I wipe my tears away and walk into the bathroom again. Its all over now. No more to fear. I can feel relieved that your not feeling any pain anymore, but I still can't help but feel bad. I'll never forget the times I had with u, and how much I loved u. u'll never be here to watch me finish growing up, but I wont forget u.