Great granddad

I can not miss
What I never had
I know that sounds kinda sad
but I was seven when he left
And he wasn't really there before that

When we when to see him
which wasn't very much
he always sat by the TV
Or yelled at one of Us
so I can't miss being
what I was never was

he wasn't very emotional
he was wound up tight
when I cried he looked away
as if I was a bright light

his smile was as big
as a flower in the snow
you had to find a magnifying glass
just to make in known

His voice was filled with anger
Even on the funnest day
I always wanted to ask
but never came the day

Looking now at his picture I wonder
If he's alone
or is Jesus with him
to brighten his lowest days

I hope he's happier now
now that the pain is gone
But I sure miss my great granddad now that hes gone