I don't even know.

I thought i understood myself
Until the day that i met you,
And now i'm not so sure,
Don't even know what's real or true.

Sometimes i want to hate you,
But i know i never could.
Just because i love you so much,
Which i know i never should.

I peer round the corner,
Watching you with her,
The way you are together;
I wish that's how we were.

Although i know i'm jealous,
Because she has got you,
I do not really hate her,
Just because her dream's come true.

And when i lie awake and cry,
That is because i know,
That my dreams never will come true,
And this pain's not going to go.

And my head is spinning round and round,
And i can't even think.
I just want to say i love you,
But i know that no good will that bring.

Help me, sorry, i just feel that i am going crazy inside xx