I remember the first time
They said you were sick
I was so confused
Because it happened so quick
I was only 11
But it doesn't seem like that long ago
I tried not to cry
Because I didn't want you to go
You got better
I was so relieved
They said it would be ok
So of course I believed
Many months later
It happened again but much worse
It was so scary
Seemed just like it was curse
I remember the very day I was told
That you didn't have much longer
I was so mad
Because I knew you were stronger
August 18, 2003
My mom told me that you were gone
I was so broken up
I totally became withdrawn
You meant everything to me
I wish that you never had to go
I miss you so much
Know one could even know
Its 3 years later
I still feel the loneliness I was left with
I'm starting to get past it
But so slow its like a myth
I still talk to you
Because its like in a way you never did leave
I still feel your presence sometimes
And that's when I start to grieve
I will get through this
But it might take me a while
I do think about the good times
And that's when I remember...
you could always make me smile
