Whats wrong with me

No one understands how crazy it is
Not knowing y I'm here
Being lost and confused
Its like its my biggest fear
Suicide, depression, self harm
Its all on the top of my mind
But love where has it gone
Its so hard to even find
I no there is someone out there
What does it take for them to speak?
Please say sooner then latter
cause Ill be lucky to last another week
Then there are friends or maybe not
They say they care they want to listen
That they are there for you always
No one knows what I’m really missing
My heart is broken soul is stolen
I’m swimming in these deep oceans
Dark blue lonely not wanted
Trying to hide all my emotions
What’s wrong with me