Opened Eyes

I open my eyes to the hidden lies,
the one mistake still makes me cry.
Secretly I'm always hiding inside,
Not letting anyone see the other side.

I lay awake at night and question,
Thinking am I ever going to learn my lesson.
All the time I'm lost in my own thoughts,
Am I the reason that this pain was brought.

If I would of said something,
Would everything be okay?
But no, I said nothing.
I regret everything that happened that day.

I wish instead of crying,
I would of had the courage to speak.
Now I feel like dying,
but then I was so meek.

I brought more pain,
and no I feel to blame.
This is making me insame.
To him its probably just a game.

I hate to think about that day.
The one I awoke and everything changed.
He didn't even have anything to say.
My life was suddenly so rearranged.

And with the cold touch of fear,
I'll lie awake in this new bound stare.
Wishing I had something to hold near.
Wishing some way everything would become clear.