Your Lies

On my sleeve, a heart does lay
Unveiled to the world beyond
It's there for a reason, not as a toy
But your hurtful words, and tormenting actions have pushed me to the state that I am in today
Force me to my knees to beg to God for help
I hope that he will see through my mistakes
Forgive me for all the times that I have sinned
I have many regrets, but I am trying my f u c k I n g hardest
And you don't seem to notice the pain you're putting me through.
Last night I lied in bed, wishing to be the Tin Man
Because then I wouldn't have a heart for everyone to play with
No one notices, no one cares
The laughs that they have at my pain tear up my insides
As my heart pounds on my sleeve
Just wanting to be accepted, but never coming upon such a desire.
You couldn't wait to stab me in the back with that dagger of yours
For the second I turned around I felt the blade pierce my skin
I fell to my knees and hit the the floor hard
Begging for your forgiveness.
I realize what I have done, but you have done the same
You're such a f u c k I n g hyprocrite
You sit there and tell me how to live my life
When you live yours just the same
When you take the time to take your head out your lies
Talk to me then.

© Jenna Elphick
March 20, 2006