My final fall to the knife
had it next to me like my life
hopeless is what i was
thought i'd never go above
nothing but lonely and alone
wishing to have a gravestone
but the days went slow
wondering if you'll ever know
but nights were worse for me
always cut myself to sleep
cry for help but there's no reply
just wanna run and hide
empty is what my heart is
nothing left, i don't wanna live
hold me tight please don't let go
i've gone too far, took the wrong road
maybe i had a chance, who knows
but the truth was never told
just wanted someone to hold
but my story just unfolds
so i killed myself with dreams of being free
roses and flowers nobody but me
insecure is what i was and always would be
it wasn't really hard to see
thought of being happy in life
but happiness came from my knife
i tried to stop but it went too long
forever i'll hold this knife to my arm
people might miss me and cry
but inside i was the one to die
no misery, it's not what i need
i needed to succeed
but all the tables turned
it's me to learn
as i took my knife up to my arm
i slowly hear a soft song
a slow pain come to my heart
knowing i was falling apart
all this time i tried so hard
but it really didn't take me far
but i had no love for me to hold
just lies that were untold
well take my last breath
put myself to death
hoping god will forgive me
and let me see and breathe
i drift away to an unknown place
nothing but disgrace
my soul will move, and up above
now i can have somebody to love...
not my best but i figured i would post it for those of you who enjoy reading my poems!!!
