Pseudonym waltz

So i guess as long as you know
that the time we spend together
ill probably always let you down
with some pathetic lie or excuse
with all my apparent hurt
ill still find way of victimizing you

so as long as you know this................

I'm praising the loner of a junk paradise
strapped to a blanket a troubled red blanket
that burns and hurts my eyes

itching and scratching at the words you left for me
maybe I'm being to analytical searching for a hidden meaning
in something we all clearly see

so I'm sorry if i waste your time
for being stupid and naive
sorry for taking everyone for granted
and leeching away at your needs
i regret taking your money
i hate the fact i hate your trends
I'm sorry i use my past as an excuse
or put on an act on just to impress your friends
I'm just so sorry

that your heart inadvertently collied into mine
and i hope that you could find what i couldn't
and carry on with life